Figuring It Out, But Feeling Great
It is May 14, 2025, and I am in class physically—but mentally, I’m here on the blog, stewing about my passions and desires.
The professor’s voice fades into background noise. Not because the subject is boring—it’s not. But because something louder is playing in my head: the question of what I actually want. Not just grades. Not just a diploma. Something more alive, more mine. The kind of thing that keeps you up at night, not because you're stressed, but because you're electric with ideas.
You never really arrive, right? There's no finish line where someone hands you a trophy and says, "You’ve made it." But there are moments—fleeting but powerful—that feel like a signal. A flash of something right. Something affirming. And in those moments, I remember why I’m doing any of this. I remember the purpose that underpins the chaos.
And if I’m being honest? I feel good—but let’s be real. I feel great. Who am I kidding?
I’ve become a 6 a.m. Pilates princess at TruFusion. I'm waking up before the sun, showing up for myself, sweating it out with intention. My mind is clearer. My body feels strong. It’s like I cracked a code—one small habit that shifts everything. Not because I’m trying to be perfect, but because I’m finally aligned. The discipline feels less like pressure and more like power.
So yeah—while I sit here in class, my mind is still sprinting through possibilities. But it’s doing it with more clarity, more strength, and a whole lot more peace. This isn’t just a season of grind. It’s a season of growth. And I’m here for all of it.
Lately, I’ve also been thinking about ways to connect with the community I seek to cultivate—people who think deeply, feel fully, and want to build something meaningful, too.
I have a vlog camera now. But I don’t want to just point it at my life and hit record. I want to craft something more intimate. More intentional. A space that feels like a late-night FaceTime or a sunrise coffee with someone who gets it. A place to reflect, laugh, vent, dream—together.
I know what I want to do: create content that feels like real fellowship. Not performance. Not noise. Just something honest, beautiful, and grounded.
I’m still figuring out the how. The format. The rhythm. The vibe. But that’s part of the process too, right? Letting it unfold. Letting it be messy until it’s meaningful.
If you’re reading this and that sounds like you, I’d love to hear from you. Whether it’s a comment, a DM, a voice memo from your morning walk—whatever feels natural—drop in and share. Let’s build something bigger than a blog.
Got ideas? Dreams? Questions? Let's talk.
